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Your blood, your bones, your voice, & your ghost.
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| Keep your coins, I want change. ((friends only)) |
[01 Jan 2020|12:00am] |
I take too many pictures. I take too many pictures of myself also. I'm not fun to look at. I don't care.
I wear too much makeup. I dress too much like a whore. My hair is too big. I have tattoos. I'm hellbent on being underweight. I have SI tendencies. If you don't like such things, leave.
I'm liberal as fuck. I'm not even pro-choice, I'm pro-abortion. I don't think you should be allowed to reproduce, along with 95% of the rest of the world. If you don't like that, leave.
I probably don't like you, and I like 'that's what she said' jokes too much.
Give me a dinosaur plushie and I'll love you forever.
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Figure out what we have in common:
Makeup/makeup artistry/MAC
High fashion/Japanese fashion
Steampunk
Tattoos
Weight loss
Photography/Self-portraits/Portraits
Abandoned places/architectural decay/graffiti/murals
Partying/the party scene
Art
Interior design/HGTV
Cooking/making pretty food
Music/Canadian indie rock/indie math rock
Boots/Stilletos
Insects/Entomology ((bug collecting))
Dinosaurs/robots/mermaids/geisha/((ammonite)) fossils
Outerspace
Volcanos
Tropical fish/coral reefs/jellyfish
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| THE IRAN ELECTION. |
[14 Jun 2009|11:23am] |
WATCH THIS!!!
The election was rigged, people are pissed and rioting in the streets, they want their votes recognised, and reform.
CNN isn't covering this. BBC is on top of things, as is TWITTER.
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| Death. |
[02 Feb 2009|09:36am] |
I should have called in to work today. I've been sick since Friday afternoon, when it started to creep up on me. Tony is sick too. We both laid in his bed all weekend and smoked a ton of pot and napped and heavily medicated ourselves. It's the flu or something, horrible sore body, death creeping in the lungs, lung butter, horrible hacking cough, head cold from hell, zero energy, lack of appetite. Blah.
I was feeling better last night, my body hurt less and my lungs and head were less congested. This morning I went to work and almost immediately regretted it. My body hurts SO BADLY I can barely function and I'm hacking shit up and I feel so drained, even though I went to bed early and slept well last night.
Starting this week I have even more overtime added to my daily route and I get no afternoon breaks any more, what a great week to kick off being ill as hell. Oh well, at least it's another 2 hours of overtime a week.
I've been staying at Tony's and we did have sex again yesterday, when we were feeling better. Maybe I will date him, I don't know.
Fuck.
I told him he has to wait, and he still does.
I know a few good reasons why I'm not trying to date anyone right now, but I don't feel like listing them.
I work with Harvey tonight. Cops took him to jail on Friday night for no reason and held him for a couple hours, under the suspicion that he was "On his way to go get drunk."
...What? Cops are fucking stupid.
We text chatted a bit over the weekend, a bit more last night. He seemed like he was in a much better mood than the last time we worked together, so I hope tonight goes smoother. He's been having a hard time with the fact that yes I am his ex and yes we need to be able to function on a normal level still especially at work where no one knows we're ex's. I'm hoping that whatever ground him wrong before though, he's over, because I really want to just be able to hang out with him and smoke a bowl and watch a movie or play Monopoly or have a drink or just sit around and chat and tell funny stories and laugh. That's what I love most about him. He's easy to be around, he makes laughing easy. As long as he's not trying as hard as he possibly can to make me cry, like he was last time I saw him ((Last time at work. :/ I seriously almost quit.))
I can't wait for Alexander McQueen's McQ line to drop.
Things I must have:
This dress. I wouldn't wear it with leggings though, ugh.
This jacket. Mmmm.
This dress. I may buy two lol.
The tank top ((in any other colour variations as well)) and the jeans.
The cardigan and keeni.
The shorts and scarf. ((BELIEVE IT OR NOT, I'M GOING TO BUY AND OWN A PAIR OF SHORTS. I'll probably wear them with black opaque tights lol.))
Want the gathered tunic, and again, the cardigan.
I'll probably update this again from my cell later.
This break ended up being rushed and I don't get one this afternoon. Bah.
Another day, another dollar. Keep digging myself that grave.
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| Hang on. |
[21 Sep 2008|07:52pm] |
Hang on, Hang on
Yes it's the little things
Yes it's the little things
That do us harm
I'm not a stranger
Ain't a mystery
When we both get it wrong
Stay here for a little while more
Cause it's the funny things
Yes it's the funny things
I need a friend
Not an angel
What do you do when the drowning stops
Hang on, I'll try to look you in the eye
You know you should've apologized
Or should I've apologized
Is there an answer
What do you do when the drowning stops
And what you thought was a hurricane
Was just the rustling of the wind
Why you think we need amazing grace
Just to tell it like it is
Well, I don't need no doctor to tear me all apart
I just need you, to mend my heart
Home on break.
( Books. )
I don't really like a lot of the books on here, nor have I read a lot of them. I'm not going to italicise the ones I intend to read because if I read them, I read them, and if I don't, I don't. I'd rather hear it from a person rather than a list, which books I should read. So, which books would you recommend to me?
This is how I feel the world should look. Why can't everything be dilapidated and concrete and nature eating it. Sometimes I wish that most everyone was gone and the world could fall into terrible disrepair while I watched.
I want to live in Michael Whelan's head, or maybe in abandoned Russia/neighbouring countries:
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Beautiful.
I'm in a weird sort of devoid mood. Strange considering how much coffee I've had today. I feel blah. And lonely. I wish I didn't have to get up at 5:25 this morning and leave David's warm bed/arms and go deal with work. Work isn't my bag. Seriously. And now that I have two jobs, I hate work even more.
20 days till Jersey.
40 days till Halloween.
David and I are amped about both. We went to Walmart yesterday and went through all the decorations. There's not that many yet, but he got a couple things. It's nice being with someone with similar interests again.
I wanted to get a gram of coke yesterday. Freddy was a bitch about it and Ru Ha didn't pick up like he was supposed to. Annoyed. I've been obsessing over coke since Harvey told me Ru Ha was going to pick up, Ru Ha always gets the best coke. I haven't done blow since 4th of July anyway, so it's been like, MONTHS.
Blah.
David's older sister gave me two garbage bags full of ((nice but preppy)) clothes and I only found 3 things that I fit in/are my style out of all of it, so I'm going to ebay the rest of it for super cheap, it's all really nice I'm just not a size 4/6/8/10/12. Which is lame cuz the Express pencil skirts/dress slacks are REALLY nice and brand-new looking. Just not my size. :(
I don't know what I'm doing after job #1 today, I don't work at #2 tonight so I guess sitting home and listing stuff on eBay all night, or maybe just taking the pics and then bringing the laptop to David's and listing it from there. I have a lot here I need to get done, but I don't want to be here.
I just feel all-around lonely today. I want to be hugged and hugged and snuggled and not let go of. I'm needy today.
I wish it wasn't so windy/looking like rain out. I want to ride my bike back to work. Oh well.
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